Hello Everyone who cares about my life!
Today is like yesterday, but tommorow is going to be very different.
Tommorow is the last day I have in my house. I'll be packing, moving, and cleaning everything. Good thing I don't have to work on Tuesday! Jesse will be taking all of our useless stuff to a storage unit in Nelson, so it'll be waiting for us to find a place. Which we still don't have, so hopefully by August 1st we'll be moved into somewhere. So much change is happening, but someone's words are helping me through. I bought an old sketch book from the thrift store the other day, it had been half used. Filled with a bunch of really wild abstract pastel drawings, (which I will put up sometime), and at the very back of the book, that person told me; "The hardest part of moving forward... is not looking back". Sometimes it feels as though life is just a creepy random voice narrating a very long story to me as I try to fall asleep...

This is the storie that I've heard so far (but pardon me because I'm not a good author);
I was born Feburary 21st 1990, in Prince George, British Columbia.
I have lived in 13 different cities since then and have moved into about 24 different houses (or more, it's hard to remember ).
I have attended approximately 9 different schools and graduated in Medicine Hat, Alberta at Medicine Hat High School in 2008 at the age of 18.
When I was 15, in Grade 10, I moved out of my family's house and into a boyfriend's Mom's house. I started my first job at this point as a sandwich artist at Subway Restaurant in Redcliff, Alberta.
Soon after we moved into Medicine Hat with three other friends; Jesse, Drew, and Dixie.
The shortest story for what happened in that house is; "CRAP, because teenagers suck". Well anyways...
I moved out of that house in about a year with Jesse. He was my only friend for that year. He still is my only friend, and has been for 2 and a half years now. In 2006, my first year with Jesse, I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. First I was mis-diagnosed with a displaced knee-cap, until my knees were the size of cantalopes and my right knee disfigured from trying to be "put in the right place". I hate doctors. When they tested my blood and found out what it was I had to take a pill form dosage of chemotherapy every sunday. After the first few weeks of trying that I was sick everyday, had no appetite, and I was absolutely exhausted. I felt worse than I did without the drugs. Then a few more weeks went by and my front hairline was beginning to recede, so that's when I decided pharmaceutical chemicals are not the answer. Pharmaceutical drugs are the 2nd largest cause of unintentional death in North America, by the way.
I quit all the drugs, without seeing my doctor again, just dropped them.
I barely ever even use tylenol.
Now my savior, and healer, and refuge is sweet Mary Jane. Marijuana helped save my body, my health, and my state of mind. I am just as motivated and active as I ever was before the sickness, I am even healthier, I think!
It was still difficult for me to get back to working though. I had only ever worked rush jobs where I'm always on my feet. So as luck would have it I became the manager of the only Headshop in town, or that I'd ever been in.
Shortly after this, I started talking to my family again... so I will stand by my beleif that things will always get betteras long as you remember; "The hardest part of moving forward... is not looking back"

And presently:
I am moving to Nelson, British Columbia with my eternal love; Jesse Evans a.k.a.
He will be there with our stuff on the 30th and I will be leaving town on July 10th. I get a little stressed every now and then but I just have to keep looking forward because I know Nelson is going to be so worth it! Hopefully by the time I get back on here with ya'll I'll be able to show you some modelling shoots, who knows what the future holds... but I'm excited!!!
Hope to talk to you all again soon! Thanks for listening, it always makes me feel better
Ivy The Ganja Queen

P.S.
Shambhala is going to be so fantastic, I've got great things planned. (Not that you can really plan for Sham ) See you guys around September some time hopefully!